Attention, attention, may I have all your eyes and ears?

Ear Candy: "Attention" by The Academy Is...

Ok, so can I just say how much I hate pretentious people? I am sitting in the Cafe Noir, this adorable little coffee shop in downtown Monterey that makes the best cup of coffee I have ever had... And I am sitting upstairs working on my Spanish homework and pretending I am not eavesdropping on the pompous upper division students working on some assignment for their Global Studies class. I hate them. I don't even know them, but after a hakf hour of listening to their pretentious, mind-numbing "look how aware and enlightened I am, and how much I know about current issues regardless of how whether or not what I am talking about is related" psychobable. There is a blonde girl whose pants are too short and who is wear ugly sneakers and keeps attacking everyone else and blabbering on about dictatorships and diamond smuggling in Zimbabwe, and how Africa doesn't value human life. Apparently, she has a better understanding of the UN and how the UN should handle everything than anyone who works there... There is a loud, curl haired guy who looks like he hasn't showered in a while and who talks and talks and talks like he understand all the secret innerworkings of all the world's governments, and how could we be so simple minded as to not understand all of the possible aspects that go into Swiss bank accounts and money laundering. And then there is a quiet Russian guy who gets interrupted a lot and talked down to by the other two.

People like that drive me crazy... And you all know what kind of people I am talking about... The ones who are (start reading with a snobby voice here) oh so enlightened and politically aware, the young, hip, college student who knows so much more than the rest of the world because they took introduction to contemporary politics. (/snobby voice) They are convinced that they are on a higher plane of thinking from the rest of the world. The ones who debate useless philosophers and have conversations that are nothing but name dropping and inflated bullshit. The same individuals that feel the need to write unprovocated political commentaries padded with ostentatiously huge words that serve no purpose beyond making those reading it feel stupid. Who read things like Bukowski just so they can say they have read it... Those who have themselves pinned as modern-day beat generation enlightened idealists. People who bump the table and spill my latte all over the leg of my last pair of clean jeans, and then look at me with the most condescending look they can muster, as if to say, "how dare you be such an idiot as to assume it would be a good idea to put your coffee onto a coffeetable!" People like that make me crazy!

If you have abandoned the potential theory that your shit doesn't smell, I love you. (If you haven't, trust me. IT DOES.)

~E

And now state lines look like the Berlin Wall

Ear Candy: "Crooked Teeth" by Death Cab for Cutie

Ok, so usually this is my thought blog, but I found this really cool survey in Gingey's blog, and wanted to do it, so here it is...

1. You and Jesus go out to dinner - who pays?
Jesus. For several reasons:
1. I am a broke college student.
2. The son of God probably has some spare cash lying around, as the Catholic church is racking it all in, supposedly for him... and
3. It's a cheap meal anyway, because we just ordered waters and he turned them into wine...

2. You suddenly have to flee the country and adopt an alias; who is it?
India Irene Devenchenzi (I have no idea where that one came from...)

3. Pick one state in the U.S. to get rid of permanently.
Arkansas

4. You wake up as the opposite gender - what's the one thing you want to try?
Masturbate. Have sex. Pee my name in the snow. In that order.

5. Luke Skywalker or Han Solo?
Han Solo, because he's all strong and scruffy and he would kind of rough you up a little bit, but in a good way...

6. Toy you always wanted but never got as a child?
A my size barbie. I feel so cheated. I was under 3' for ever! There were plenty of opportunities, people!

7. Top three celebrities you want to do
1. Ryan Gosling
2. Ryder Strong
3. Jared Leto

8. What's an automatic deal breaker in a potential significant other?
Overly greasy hair, an expensive drug habit that could potentially warrant him robbing me, he's married, or he has gross teeth/bad breath.

9. What is the last movie you saw that actually scared you?
Silent Hill

10. Stupidest thing you've ever said out loud?
Wow, this is a long list... Feel free to fill in this one with your favorite "Erin is a dumbass" moment..
"Why would it matter if her name is Melita? That sign says "Militia Road..." (it doesn't...)

11. You're sentenced to death and its the morning of your execution what's your last meal?
A High tech bean and cheese quesedilla with extra guac, mozarella sticks with marinara sauce, and a piece of cheesecake factory Lemon Raspberry Chessecake... And maybe a plate of their four cheese pasta... Can you tell I like cheese?

12. What's something that you've done that most people haven't?
I don't know... Screamed back at James Ryall when he screamed at me? Most people are too scared to yell back... But maybe that's why we're best friends...

12. What's something that most people do that you've never done?
Seen The Matrix. Any of them.

13. Before you die you want to go to...?
RUSSIA, Europe in general, Thailand, Australia, Brazil... the list goes on... I want to go everywhere.

14. Something you'd really like to do but probably wont ever be able to do?
sing in a band, and learn to play the bass...

15. A wild animal you'd like to have as a pet?
I've always wanted a koala. maybe a kinkaju... they have big eyes like mine.

16. A drug you'll never try?
heroin, crack, coke, speed, meth... anything i forgot that involves a needle.

17. If you were an animal what would you be?
a kinkaju for the big eyes, or maybe a white bengal tiger... i think they are kind of majestic...

18. If you had to marry someone you knew at the age of 12 who would it be?
Blake. Or Kyle Surlow.

19. What's something most people don't know about you?
I love Greek mythology. LOVE IT.

20. First celebrity crush?
Third Grade: Leonardo DiCaprio... I first saw him on a Growing Pains rerun on the Disney Channel, and knew I was going to marry him... Maybe I should let him know?

21. What's a weapon to suit your personality, habits and abilities?
A cross bow... I think that would be badass...

23. Favorite breakfast bread style (pancakes, waffles, toast etc...)?
bagels and fruit... and a coffee.

24. Favorite parody movie?
Shaun of the Dead

25. Worst way to die?
drowning

26. Grossest injury you've ever seen?
in real life, my dad after his last bike acident. gnarly.

27. The worst injury you've ever had?
probably one of my broken noses...

28. Favorite thing about Thanksgiving?
playing with Reefer, and hanging out with the fam.

29. Sport you hate the most?
nascar or wrestling

30. What city in the U.S. do you want to visit?
new york, seattle, any where in colorado

31. What's something you think would be sweet to know everything about?
religions, cars

32. Favorite Actor/Actress?
ooh... that is hard. I don't think I have a favorite... Will Ferrel because he is funny, Jared Leto or Jake Gyllenhaal... And Jennifer Connely.

33. What's one word you absolutely detest?
moist

34. What makes an awesome party?
fun people, good drinks, good music, no drama

35. What's your material obsession?
designer jeans, SHOES, expensive make up...

36. What's something most would consider an insult but you enjoy having said about you?
"you're a handful"

37. Favorite kind of dog?
chiot! a cocker-poodle...

38. Favorite carnival food (everyone has one)?
garlic fries or chocolate covered frozen cheesecake...

39. Morning or night person?
night

40. Worst drunken habit?
being loud, being too friendly

41. Weirdest eBay purchase?
i've never bought anything on eBay

42. Favorite food to eat when you're wasted?
french fries, reese's fast breaks, annie's mac and cheese

43. Its Saturday at 3am where are you?
if i am at school, cleaning up the beer cans in my room from the lovely kait. if i am at home, either sleeping or with the boy.

44. Who's your favorite friend to go out with?
claire, steffie (i miss you!), james (!!!), rosie, boyfriend, jess (i miss you too!), devin and ben and spike and lilli, hanny

45. Worst job you've ever had?
high tech had its ups and downs...

46. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
lots of things... mostly my nose?

47. Favorite cereal?
OHS! honey nut cheerios, frosted flakes, puffins...

48. Book you could read repeatedly?
harry potters, the perks of being a wallflower, the electric kool-aid acid test, pride and predjudice

49. What's the meanest thing you've ever done?
i am really not sure... i've done some pretty mean things... not a great feeling.

50. Tell an interesting story about the last person to fill this out.
steffie is just fun... probably my favorite erin and steffie moment was when we were driving up to tahoe, and we made road friends (and nemesis!) and the traffic was so bad on 280 that we put the car in park and had a techno dance party in the car on the freeway...

If you love pointless surveys, I love you.

~E

Isn't this exactly where you want me?

Ear Candy: "But It's Better When We Do" by Panic! at the Disco (so sue me, I love them...)

Ok, so i realize that I have sucked at updating this thing, but I think that I really only update this when I have something important to say, so perhaps it is a good thing that I haven't been bothering you all with a lot of nonsense...

So the wall behind my bed is covered in pictures of everyone from home, and it makes me miss everyone so badly. But I get the feeling that most of that is one sided... Like all the hugs and "I love you! I'll miss you" before I left was just a formality, and that once the car pulled onto the 101 south exit, everyone breathed a sigh of relief. Now, perhaps saying everyone is not fair, as I am sure that there are those who really meant it, and do miss me, but I don't think it is as many people as I would like... Is life weird without me there? It is so weird without all of you. I have friends down here who I really like, but they can't fill the rolse of everyone down there to the same degree. I miss the strangest people, people I didn't expect to miss, at least not to the degree that I do.

At the same time, one of my favorite things about being down here is that I am free. Free of preconceived notions of who I am (because let's face it, all of you have an idea of who you think I am, whether or not it is current or even remotely acurate) and free to be myself without the confines of everyone who knows me. That part is kind of nice. However, the people that go to college and decide to be completely different people and forget where they came from bother me, simply because I think you can't really escape being yourself. Eventually, the real you comes out. Why try to hide it? Although, having no one down here that I know is kind of scary, like free falling without a parachute...

Both completely on another subject and along the same train of thought, I hate feeling like I care more about someone than they do about me, and I hate hate hate feeling like I am putting in all the work in a relationship, like if I stopped trying, it would just fall flat. And as much as I feel like a whiney seventh grade girl here, I really was hurt by the people who didn't call me back to at least see me, even if briefly, before I left, even more by those who did call me back and then blew me off... It seemed like it didn't matter that I left. But c'est la vie. I can only do so much, then it is out of my head and simply an intention released into the universe.

One thing I miss about home? Hugging. No one hugs here. Well, I hug, and no one knows quite how to respond to it. That makes me sad. I miss the physical contact.

Ok, time to go waste my time and eat some sub-par DC food...

If you love me, I love you back. A lot. (And I probably miss you like hell.)

~E