Ear Candy: "Champagne From a Paper Cup" by Death Cab for Cutie
Thank you so much Claire...
You saved my life.
I love you.
~E
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes...
Ear Candy: "Collide" by Howie Day
So tonight was OC night, which was fine and all, but honestly, the only real event of the night was the ride home. Ginge drove me home, which was fun, because it was like old times. We talked about everything that had happened, and I told her that I missed her so much. And she told me she missed me too, and that she had never hated me, and we both apologized. I know that I can never hope to have back what we used to have, but I am so thankful that I can have at least this with her. She is a best friend like none I have ever had, and when I lost that, you can bet I felt it. Even after everything that was said and done, she still means so much to me. There are so many songs that make me think of her, so many memories that make me smile, or cry... And I still can't go get bagels in my jimmy jams without missing her. I know we will never be close like we were, but I need to at least be ok with her, and to know that we are ok... I need that. And there are tears streaming down my face (I fell so stupid when I cry in front of people) and I don't know if they are happy or sad, or relieved, but they feel good. It feels so good to get all this out. So Gingey, (I am not even sure if she reads this or not, not that any of this is anything she hasn't heard...) I lurve you darling... Thank you for tonight... For everything. I owe you.
If you are reading this, especially tonight, I love you.
~E
So tonight was OC night, which was fine and all, but honestly, the only real event of the night was the ride home. Ginge drove me home, which was fun, because it was like old times. We talked about everything that had happened, and I told her that I missed her so much. And she told me she missed me too, and that she had never hated me, and we both apologized. I know that I can never hope to have back what we used to have, but I am so thankful that I can have at least this with her. She is a best friend like none I have ever had, and when I lost that, you can bet I felt it. Even after everything that was said and done, she still means so much to me. There are so many songs that make me think of her, so many memories that make me smile, or cry... And I still can't go get bagels in my jimmy jams without missing her. I know we will never be close like we were, but I need to at least be ok with her, and to know that we are ok... I need that. And there are tears streaming down my face (I fell so stupid when I cry in front of people) and I don't know if they are happy or sad, or relieved, but they feel good. It feels so good to get all this out. So Gingey, (I am not even sure if she reads this or not, not that any of this is anything she hasn't heard...) I lurve you darling... Thank you for tonight... For everything. I owe you.
If you are reading this, especially tonight, I love you.
~E
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
All I Really Want Is You...
Ear Candy: "To Forever Embrace the Sun" by Sky Came Falling
You know that the second best feeling in the world is? Having a crush on someone. It just makes me feel alive... I dunno, I just love it! The heart pounding when you see them, the unsuppressable grin when they say hi, just wanting to be with them. The first best feeling in the world is knowing that someone has a crush on you. But for now, I'll settle for second. And second ain't bad! Just when I forgot I was living, I get brought back. I love that.
I apologize for being girlish and crazy. But I won't say that it won't happen again, beacause that would be crazy talk.
I love you.
Laters, E
You know that the second best feeling in the world is? Having a crush on someone. It just makes me feel alive... I dunno, I just love it! The heart pounding when you see them, the unsuppressable grin when they say hi, just wanting to be with them. The first best feeling in the world is knowing that someone has a crush on you. But for now, I'll settle for second. And second ain't bad! Just when I forgot I was living, I get brought back. I love that.
I apologize for being girlish and crazy. But I won't say that it won't happen again, beacause that would be crazy talk.
I love you.
Laters, E
Monday, February 07, 2005
Tell It Like You Still Believe...
Ear Candy: "Amie" by Damien Rice
So today in Ms. Butler's class, and old student of hers came in to say goodbye. He graduated last year, had just turned 18, and had enlistend in the infantry of the Marine Corps. I had never met him before, and I was not even sure that I had seen him around school before... He looked vaguely familiar, but done up in his full out military gear, he looked less like a student and more like a stern-faced adult. His name was... something Chamberlin I think. Like I said, I didn't know him. But for some reason, seeing him there in his uniform, I just wanted to cry. He said that he was being shipped to the Fallujah-Bagdhad area, and that he would have one of the most dangerous jobs in his unit. The song "Amie" by Damien Rice was playing on my iPod while he was talking, and I just felt so sad for this boy. He was so young. And I know he is all brave and everything for going to "defend his country", but he is so young! He has his whole life ahead of him. And the thought of him never coming home absolutely broke my heart. I kept thinking, "that could be Galen... Or Pierpaolo..." And how much I love them both so much and that I couldn't bare to lose either of them. How much I didn't want to lose anymore people I care about. The guy got a sad look on his face when we said that none of us were enlisting, and all I could think running through my head when I saw his face was, "why?" And "When do you come home?" I have never met him, but in the five minutes he was in my life, I felt so sad at the thought of him going to war. I have no idea why.
If you are reading this, I love you.
Love, E
So today in Ms. Butler's class, and old student of hers came in to say goodbye. He graduated last year, had just turned 18, and had enlistend in the infantry of the Marine Corps. I had never met him before, and I was not even sure that I had seen him around school before... He looked vaguely familiar, but done up in his full out military gear, he looked less like a student and more like a stern-faced adult. His name was... something Chamberlin I think. Like I said, I didn't know him. But for some reason, seeing him there in his uniform, I just wanted to cry. He said that he was being shipped to the Fallujah-Bagdhad area, and that he would have one of the most dangerous jobs in his unit. The song "Amie" by Damien Rice was playing on my iPod while he was talking, and I just felt so sad for this boy. He was so young. And I know he is all brave and everything for going to "defend his country", but he is so young! He has his whole life ahead of him. And the thought of him never coming home absolutely broke my heart. I kept thinking, "that could be Galen... Or Pierpaolo..." And how much I love them both so much and that I couldn't bare to lose either of them. How much I didn't want to lose anymore people I care about. The guy got a sad look on his face when we said that none of us were enlisting, and all I could think running through my head when I saw his face was, "why?" And "When do you come home?" I have never met him, but in the five minutes he was in my life, I felt so sad at the thought of him going to war. I have no idea why.
If you are reading this, I love you.
Love, E
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