I'll be alright, as long as you stay with me...

Ear Candy: "Stay With Me (Brass Bed)" by Josh Gracin

Tonight was the best, the worst, the most... I can't even describe it. Tonight was the worst I have felt in a very long time, the first time in seemingly forever I have cried... At least about her... I love/need/hate/miss her more than anything. And I don't talk about it, or think about it, but it is there. And tonight I felt it. And I cried. And then my angel was there.

Tonight was seven years. Seven years of crying, laughing, loving, hating, boys, girls, fighting, living. Seven years that I couldn't have done and wouldn't have loved if I hadn't had my angel with me. Claire Bear, you are my everything. My best friend, my rock, my sense of humor, my smile in the morning (especially mornings where I wake up because you are jumping on me.) my sister. I needed you, you were there. I knew you would be, because you always are. You always have been. And I hope you always will be.

Here's to being 40 with better hair than our moms at 40, and for never having to fight Spiderman. Here's to tanning now and buying new skin later. Here's to F*R*I*E*N*D*S and friends. Here's to "hanky" and "hankies" and sweet sweet heroine coursing through our veins when we're eighty. And jumping in front of buses while most certainly not wearing diapers.

I love you. You saved me yet again. We win at life.

I love you girlee! You are delightfully rhuddabomb. TURTLE POWER!

~E