Ear Candy: "How To Save a Life" by The Fray
In my life lately, I have been facing a liot of things that are really hard. And I am not going to get into them, because I am working through it. But most of all, I am being confronted with life, and how short and fragile it can be. And I feel like I don't say enough how much I absolutely love all of you. I am not sure exactly who reads this, but if you take the time to see what I have to say, I mean you. If you are in my life, I mean you. I am ok, I wasn't for the longest time, but I am, and as cliche and cheesy as all this may sound tomorrow morning, it is because you guys were there for me and picked me up when I needed it. I can only hope that you know that I will always do the same for you. I am not sure what brought this all on, end of the year? This song is not helping, because it so much applies to my life, and it is making me think, but in a good way. Where did this all come from? Graduating? Tonight's difficult to watch episode of my guilty pleasure show, One Tree Hill? Perhaps.
But however you cut it, I needed you all to know that whatever the future holds, you are all amazing, and I am so incredibly lucky to have you, to hold you, and to be given the opportunity to love you.
And I really do. I love you.
~E
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ive been feeling that way for a while now.
i was getting really depressed because i felt like it was my senior year and suddenly everyone's ripping each other apart.
katie said, "yeah, that's because we're all leaving and we can be honest with each other."
though i know what she means, that's really not how i want to spend my last months with all you guys. lol, at one point i complained to chelsea, "I HATE BEING SURROUNDED BY ALL THIS NEGATIVE ENERGY!" and then realized how RSI it was. but seriously...i'd rather celebrate the good rather than get preoccupied with the bad.
anyhow, i love you too miss sweeney, i hope we hang out again soon, and see each other for more than 3 minutes, like at the highlighter party.
mwah
<3sarry
im really glad i've been hanging out with you whenever i can. i know how senior year can get and honestly that thing katie said is true. everyone just gets honest and it can be horrible.
its such a hard time and a hard thing to get out of. highschool. its so hard to leave but when you finally do, it's crazy. it's like you're a whole new person. sometimes that's bad but usually good.
i ruv you erin!
well, i could understand why you might say "cast only" to keep randos out, but when it comes to the point where you're barring out people's best friends and making it some crazy elite event just for the principle (and honestly...theres nothing really backing up that principle) then it just seems like a bit of a petty power trip.
and i actually have no idea who said that. i really hope it isnt someone i'm close to, because it really hurt my feelings. especially because they said, "yeah, and you know because katie's throwing it that means that sarah has to be there too.." it seems that someone has more of a problem with me, rather than the party..
I've been thinking about the same thing, too. In the past few years I've built so much on these relationships. Admittedly, sometimes I would break them down, but I did my best to fix them. I'm not gonna cry at graduation. I am going to weep. Openly. Dear god, I'm getting teary-eyed just thinking about it.
I love you, too, Erin Sweeney. I love all of you so very very much. It feels like you guys have all touched me so much in just this last year, and I finally feel like I'm finally part of a group of people that understand, respect, and accept me. I've never been in that kind of place before. I've always been like Tim Barich; there, but not belonging.
In past years I was spending most of my time with a "different crowd," I guess you would say. A crowd that betrayed me and left me for dead, so to speak. It pains me to think about all the time I could've been spending with the people I belong with, I spent it with a bunch of schmucks. Coincidentally, I was about to write a blog on that very subject when I ran into this one.
You guys are the best. I have never had more fun, more laughs, more love, more real-life connections with anyone else in my entire life than with this group of people. I love you all. Good night.
write more bitch! haha
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