Follow your heart, not your comforts...

Ear Candy: "Time of No Reply" by Nick Drake

So today sucked. A lot. I am so so tired of it sucking and of only writing blog posts that ooze emo and bum people out.

So I was talking to Khouansiva today (I love her so much. She is truly amazing in every way possible and she doesn't even see it.) and she asked me what I want. It's a very simple question, but I came up with a lot, and I felt the need to get it down...

*I want things to make sense
*I want certain people to like me and to go to turnabout with me and to stop being a dillhole.
*I want my old friends to stop hating me and treating me like dirt and talking down to me, and to get over themselves, and for us all to get along. I miss them, Gingey especially...
*I want everyone to stop yelling at me and being mad at me for things I didn't do.
*I want a part in a play that means something, and for people to realize that I deserve to be there just as much as they do...
*I want a vacation where people actually call me and I don't have to pull teeth to see people
*I want a real hug with a squeeze that makes me feel better
*I want friends that aren't only friends with me because they want something, and that I know I can count on.
*I want to be happy. I am so fucking tired of being unhappy.
*I want... I want my mommy... There is nothing I can do about that one.

I want a minute of normality... I am so tired of all of this, of everything. I need to go to bed.

Mario and Brittany need to stop fucking to we can finish filming our project. I take a while to edit. BAH.

I love you.

Laterz, E