Ear Candy: "Blue and Yellow" by The Used
Say what you want about the lame factor of the Used, I love this song... And I am exhausted. My body is starting to shut down and cease to function from stress and overwork. I am tired. of trying, of living my life in a medicated haze trying to function, of pretending to be happy when I know I am lying, of having to carry the weight of others, of feeling like a burden when I try to lighten my load. I am scared. I am tired. I need a hug. I want someone to hold me and stroke my hair and tell me that everything will work out. I am tired of being the strong one, the one that doesn't cry, the one that can handle anything. I can't. I want to be finished with this goddamn@$@$&$@$%^#Q&%#&%&*@&%&*%#7 film project, and for my dad to not find out about the party, and for this all to work... I want to do something this weekend, I want everyone to be happy and to have someone or something that makes them that way. I have come to resent everything that used to make me happy. I feel like I am six again, and I am being teased and I try to fight back, but I am too small and there are too many of them. It is just too much.
I want my mommy.
I love you.
~E
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listen, for some reason i have felt this weird "connection" to you lately. i dont even have any idea what kind of connection, but maybe its that i feel the same way you do about everything right now. but then again, i dont know how youfeel about things right now. so it makes no sense at all. youre a really rad person and im glad i wasnt all super judgemental and gave you a "second chance." im really glad i know you. and i hope that everything you want twill come to you right when you want it.
goodnight.
i just read your whole blog.
i'm pleased to know that i've thought you were super-chouette all along :). i love you air. and i'm sure your mom is with you everywhere you are.
yeah, you didnt do anything. it was just a dumb comment i made to dillon that involved you. "stop flirting you two" is what it was. he didnt like that.
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